Written May 2023
Last night, I sobbed while held by my Love.
That sentence is an answered prayer.
I cried and asked for pain to be taken away from someone I love.
That sentence is a prayer I want to see answered.
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I chose "none of it contradicts" as a mantra for this year.
I set it with the intention of forgiving myself for my past.
The universe applied it to my present.
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Last year, I went to seven weddings. This year, it is May and I have been to three funerals.
I am in love with a man who brings immense brightness to my every single day.
My heart is breaking from witnessing friends navigate impossible circumstances.
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These friends bring love to my life, as they look at me with tear-filled eyes.
I feel a growing sense of connection to whatever is beyond us as I navigate loss with an open heart and mind.
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None of it, absolutely none of it contradicts.
Still my heart is growing to make room for all of it.
This is my lesson at this moment in time ::
Continue to make room for all that life brings to my door.
To the window of my awareness. That is really just a window after all. There is so much more going on than I can see from this vantage point.
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Honoring this truth, while also honoring the truth of what is going on right in front of me. This how I embody that "none of it contradicts."
Which is a lesson I am still very much in the midst of. Yet I hope sharing my middle-of-it insights brings some comfort to whoever you are, however your heart is in this moment.
With So Much Love,
Mary Grace